Archive for April 12, 2009

For Easter Dinner, the plan is to go to my brother’s for dinner.

With me, Chief, Bubba and Spaz the total amount of people will be 24.

Large crowd but my family is a piss when we all get together.

Last night, around 10:45, Bubba walks in :: late, mind you :: and immediate starts arguing with Spaz. Me and Chief were in our bedroom playing PS3 when we heard Bubba yell some foul things at Spaz.

Chief immediately jumped up and called him out and made an issue about his curfew.

I then asked Chief if he had mentioned to Bubba that we were going to my brothers. He said he hadn’t and I asked him if he thinks he should.

Like, DUH!!!

So Chief tells Bubba and he askes what time we were leaving. Chief tells him by 1pm and then Bubba asks him what time we would be home.

Chief says he doesn’t know and Bubba does his sigh of the universe ending and says that he wanted to sleep at a friend’s house. He could, Chief said, as long as he changed his clothes and took a shower first.

???? WTF?? I’m not getting into that.

Anyway.. not five minutes later, Bubba signs on to the PS3 in the living room and send a message asking if he had to go to my brothers.

Did I tell you this kid was a dick?? I mean, we were literally 20 feet away and he sends a message via the PS3?

Chief said, no.. he didn’t have to go and I got a major attitude.

The look on my face probably said it all because Chief immediately asked me if I was upset with him.

I said no because realistically I’m coming to terms with the fact that it all doesn’t matter anymore.

For the last 17 months, I ‘ve been doing everything I possibly could to make this motley crew into a family … a family like the one I enjoyed growing up where everybody talks to everyone, gets along, has fun and can be relied on for support in times of need.

They don’t have that.

They never did.

Now… they never will.

When I said I was done in my last post, it wasn’t out of anger or being pissed off. I said it because it’s the truth. It was hard but things are the way things are and I’m not going to waste anymore time trying to make things different.

I don’t know where things are going now .. I don’t know how I’m going to react to things in the future.. all I know is that my dream has ended and my efforts were for nothing.